Goodbyes Are Hard...Hellos Are Harder

Goodbye... or Hello?

Most people would rather say Hello then have to say Goodbye but if you say Hello You'll have to say Goodbye too...so wouldn't you rather say Goodbye where there's always that chance in life where you will once again say Hello?

What if you dont say Hello and you dont say Goodbye either?

Song of the Day: Never Too Late by Three Days Grace

Word of the Day: Foudroyant [foo-DROI-uhnt] Definition: sudden and overwhelming in effect.

Mood: Fighting the urge to sob into the late night.


Wondering What My Future Holds,
xoxo

Bridging the Gaps?

I tried to bridge the gap between my old friend, Justin, and well...
I guess some broken things aren't supposed to be fixed.
Some bridges were meant to be burned.
Some hearts meant to be broken.
But goodness, he was one of my best friends! Things aren't supposed to die between best friends, so why do we let friendships go? Why must things die? It was such a beautiful friendship, so easy to be around him and then it all just vanished, and all the years were taken with it! A part of ME was taken with that, a piece of my childhood I'll never forget. Four years forever lost, and a friendship taken with it.

CURSE YOU TIME! Time is not on our side, I encourage you, GO FIND THAT FRIEND! Fix things now! Save what you can because what if you don't wake up tomorrow? What if you cant ever mend things? What if somehow you've totally lost everything you have with one moment, one flick of the hand on the clock and it's all gone? I want to throw a fit, I want to fight back for those years I've lost, for those words I'll never get back, and the chances I'll never get to say what I need to say.

Just...take the time now, put behind you what you can get over quickly, and Bridge the Gap between you and whoever, but if you do it...do it now. Time will take it away quickly...

Song of the Day: What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts

Word of the Day:  Balneal (bal-NEE-uhl) Definition: prtaining to baths or bathing.

Mood: Completly crushed.


tumbling down,
xoxo

Friday the 13th

So! Happy Friday the13th! How many is that this year?
OH! And, day 2 of school down, only 178 more school days left! If I had the spare tme, I'd totaly count weekends too, but the school already says that we have to go 180, so let's count down from that! 
Well, as far as my classes go, I'm doing pretty good. I don't dislike teachers yet, but I'm really going to have to push myself to the limit, and that's a lot of how I'm to become a better me.
People always tell me that I give this amazing advice, and all I can think of is "I've never actually gone through any of this" especially when it comes to Boy Advice... Ooooh, the big macho caps on that. But this past few days I've been totally pulling all of the weight of that on my shoulders, and add on a ton of stress, I'm not a strong enough person to handle all of this.

Only God is big enough to handle stress and weight that is not yours, and then yours too. If you give it all to God you'll be free.

I've always been so strong, I've always been the one everyone turns to and finally I
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Under so much pressure, you finally just snap, and you break and you crumble, and I  hit that point. I broke, and it got to the point I just hurt so much on the inside. I ached to be that little girl again who could just let it all go, to be care free, but at the same time, if  I was care free, would I know how to love?
Oh the questions that rake my mind.

Song of the Day: Atlantic by We the Living

Word of the Day: attar *AT-er* Definiton: perfume or essential oil obtained from flowers or petals.

Mood: Hanging in after that huge break down.


Singing in the London Rain,
zozo

 

New Everything

Hello! :)

As it is, I have decided to start fresh. On everything! Here's how I look at it: new house, new section (band), new me, new blog! I just need to be reborn agian, which is how my theme came along. Butterflies are a symbol for being born again, or the rebirth of something, and in my case, it's the rebirth of myself in multiple aspects of my life.

Song of the day: Marry Me by Train  Album: Save Me, San Francisco

Word of the day: fantod -Definition-a state of extreme nervousness or restlessness

Mood: still a bit exhausted from band camp :) You should ask about those stories!

Flying,
xoxo